“WHAT are you waiting for?”, I asked myself. It is 4am in the night, or maybe 4am in the morning, I am really not sure. The time-space continuum is lost on me these days. Happy-sad, Energized-lethargic, Inspired-Demotivated, Love-Hate, Hopeful-dismal, i can feel all emotions at the same time, mixed together in all their fury coming at me like a wave- a tsunami threatening to crush me, and wipe me off.
I never knew getting back on track could be so difficult. Human beings are very conveniently made. Each carries with them a Pandora’s box, a treasure chest of emotions, locked with a lock so fragile that the merest of tempering can unleash its payload. Why is it so easy to go astray, so easy to just quit, so easy to just not try? Why does the sunrise symbolize a new beginning, and why does witnessing a sunset bring about a storm of negativity? What IS it that really holds us back?
After giving it much thought, after watching a few sunrises, a few sunsets, a few fights with my loved ones, a few (ok maybe not a few) mood swings, a few periods of inspired hard work followed by equal times of wasteful sleeping, and a few heated debates, discussions & speculations later, i have found absolutely NOTHING..ZILCh..
A time will come when i will walk this road to self discovery, but now is not that time. So i have decided that whenever these thoughts & questions start playing around in my head/with my head, ill just slap myself and get back to work, because time will NOT wait for me. But in the end of it all, one question still hangs in the air, unanswered and refusing to depart, WHAT am i waiting for? ill get back to you when i have found the answer to this one. Till then adorn your desktops with this ‘little motivation’.
~A man’s greatness is measured by the index of his dreams~
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